staying still like prey and at times acting functional.
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I had an impressive moment on the plane. I don’t know if it was the plane who impressed me, or the song playing synchronistically as we were landing, or the timing of it all. It was Glenn Branca’s Sym. No. 1, Movement 1.
It was a late evening flight back from Sofia to İstanbul, on which I suspended between the states of being awake and asleep throughout the entire way with my cap unworn over my head and tilted down so it would block out the light. It was one of the very few 55 minutes I had all to myself recently. Branca’s song overlapped perfectly with our landing, the guitar and the drums around the 3rd minute and the 36th second starts playing exactly when we are close to the ground enough to start seeing the city lights. The in sync movement-sound moment setting up a rather concerned but adventurous mood, just as how you would feel like when a plane is landing. As the song becomes more complex with more instruments and rhythm, you can tell something’s about to happen. And you look out the window and you see it to be true.
Maybe it was me who impressed myself as the person being responsible of the timing.
I wouldn’t be able to tell you exactly when to start playing the song in regards to when the pilot makes the landing announcement, but perhaps you give it a try. Give things a try to trust in your own timing. Turns out anything can be orchestrated. Or turns out anything can become a part of an orchestra.
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I had another moment where I wrote this down: I go back and forth between reading my book and my Goodreads account. Meaning I’m monitoring more than doing the thing I’m monitoring.
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Then I wrote how I forgot about the actual pace of time. I do not remember anymore how it usually moved.
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Sitting on a chair: Sitting on this chair and not that one. Sitting here and calling it a chair. Trusting the chair. Melting into the chair. Then moving to the edge of the chair. Weighing your comfort. Deciding which chair. But on this chair, it’s your chair. Deciding whether you like it or not. Eliminating options. Knowing your own chair. Committing to the chair. Understanding where on the chair you commit. Understanding sitting to be a loosely committed action. Understanding you don’t have to do all that much to commit. Just sit back.